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This is a blog about me, Ally, 44 now...trying to conceive baby #3. After 5 years, several miscarriages and heartaches we finally did it. Ava Lynn was born on January 30th 2009. Now I have two teenagers and a baby! Ally wants three is now complete. It's all gravy from here on in...

Monday, February 28, 2005

I feel like total crap...

I have to admit something. I was feeling very hopeful this month. I thought it was actually possible I could be pregnant. I have alot of symptoms. Sore boobs, cramps, montgomery tubercles. I was thrilled. That was until I read that it's also the symptoms of Clomid. I chatted on FF with a few people who've had it happen to them, only to be let down in the end. They really burst my bubble. I know it wasn't intended but the truth is, it's a possibility that I am not.

So, I have an appointment to get a blood test done tomorrow but I will only be 10 DPO. I may not have even implanted yet. I think I will wait until Friday to take the test if some other biatch doesn't arrive before then. For now, I sit totally bummed and waiting.

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Thursday, February 24, 2005

Still have to wait..

5 DPO
a little twinge of pulling on the left side
sensitive nipples (sorry TMI)
98.0 dropped 2 degrees (don't know if that means anything)


Weather is stinky, I feel pretty good. I'm in a good mood. Hubby is starting to feel better. His fever broke. I was supposed to go by the book store but it was raining so
hard, I thought better of it. I think I'll do Amazon instead.

I was reading the post Pinky left on the "other blog" and it made me reflect...so here goes...

Les, I hope you're feeling better. It was great to finally be able to chat. Seems like forever since we caught up. I wish you lived closer. We could chat in person. That would be so excellent. You will always hold a special place in my heart.

Jenn, what can I say about you. You are like the "real sister" I never had. You know me so well and we're so much alike, and in spite of that, I still like you.hahahhaa. What a lovely pea.

Jess, another country gal I can relate to. Who else thinks Larry the Cable Guy is sexy! I wish I could go with you to see him.

Jaime, I was so shy (believe it or not) until I saw that no matter what I said, you were always behind me. I'll never forget that. Plus you're from TX...can't be that bad :)

Chas, you remind me of a younger sister which I have never had. I take you under my wing and guide you as best as I can. I'm a sucker for your cute red hair too and I've never seen it.

I, with Pinky, dont' have many girlfriends that I can relate to. Sure, I have gf's I talk to every day irl but it just isn't the same. I just don't know how to explain it any better.

SO, there ya have it...My girls. My fellow IPPers. I love you all.


Boobie

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Aren't we cute?

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Tuesday, February 22, 2005

My cycle has changed

Fertility Friend changed my cycle. I put in todays temp and I guess it goes by the jump in temps...so now I have a 30 day cycle and back to 3 DPO.

I still don't feel great. My boobs are real sensitive and I'm having that pulling feeling across my stomach again. I hope I'm not coming down with a cold. That would suck. My hubby and my son are both dealing with the "sickness" and I'm praying I wont be next.

I have to go get some cough syrup for my son, pick up my meds and then I'm heading back home to sack out. More later...

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Monday, February 21, 2005

Nausea already?

I don't know why I've had nausea for the past two days. It's way too early to have any kind of symptoms. A friend of mine who also concieved on Clomid told me she had early symptoms because of the increased estrogen. I'm not saying it could be it but it's always a possibility. I don't feel sick. I just feel like my stomach is doing back flips. I felt it when I woke up so it couldn't be anything I ate. I just don't have a clue. I just have to wait it out for another 10 days.

I had lunch with my hubby today. That was nice. Now I'm doing laundry and thinking about dinner. I can't even think of eating anymore today with the way I feel but I need to make the kids something. Maybe hotdogs or pasta...that's always easy.

Well, nothing much else is going on. I still haven't gotten the turtles that Les sent me...Jenn got hers but where is mine? WAHHHHHHHHHHH!!! My damn mail lady probably ate them.

Anyway, gotta go fold some clothes so see ya!

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Sunday, February 20, 2005

Sunday and waiting

Well, another dismal looking day in South Texas. Kids aren't feeling well so we're stuck inside watching cartoons and being stir crazy.

I'm glad my discomfort has subsided. According to FF, I'm 3 dpo. My temps are up but my monitor has gone back to high. I guess I'm in the 2WW now. What fun it is to wait!

Well,, that's it for now, more later.

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Saturday, February 19, 2005

Catching up...

I feel like I've been gone so long and it's only been one day. Talk about computer dependancy. My computer has some spyware or some kind of virus on it and will take another few days to get fixed. My hubby went out and bought me a laptop. WOW! How cool is he?

On the ttc front...my pains are starting to subside which leads me to believe the egg has finally dropped. We bd's every day so hopefully we made a connection. I got the PreSeed in the mail
yesterday and it was just in time. I was truly concerned about my non existant CM. I took my temp today and it's still up so we'll see what happens. I also got another Peak this morning but we didn't BD. Dave was just strung out from work and he wasn't feeling too well. I'm sure we did it enough this month. Cause frankly, we're both exhausted and need a break!

Anyway, I have to download a bunch of stuff for this laptop so off I go.

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Friday, February 18, 2005

We have a PEAK

WOW, I was stunned. I had to take a double take but there it was...PEAK. Finally. I knew when I took my temp this morning and it was up that this could be the day. I'm so relieved. We bd'd last night and will again today just to be sure.

I still have ovary pain but I think it's all worth it if I get PG.

Well, I gotta run. I have to check on my computer...it died and I'm logged in at the library.

I hope everyone is well and I'll talk to you soon.

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Wednesday, February 16, 2005

we have EWCM!

wow...I thought it would never show up on the Clomid. I ordered the preseed but it hasn't arrived yet. CD 15 and I'm ready to "O".

Bd'ed last night and I will say, was most uncomfortable with the pelvic pain I have. I can't explain how it feels only to say it feels like your stomach is gonna fall out whenever you walk, have sex, eat, etc... Tomorrow is another bd'ng day and I hope I will feel better by then.

Progesterone starts again on CD 22. At least that didn't make me feel weird.

Nothing much else is going on. I'm just gonna curl up with my kids and my hubby and take it easy tonight.



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Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Ugh!

Talk about the worst experience! I had my mammogram today. Now, I have had them for 5 years now and this by far was the worst and most painful yet. The lady kept pushing and prodding me, pulling on my boobs and contorting me in ways I don't care to get into. AND THEN...she tells me not to breathe while she takes the pictures. GEEZ!
Us women really go through torture.

So my OB/GYN is putting me on the progesterone again this month. I guess she's hopeful which is always a plus. My temp rose today so we'll be bding just in case. I know the dr told me to wait three days but I wanna make sure it's in there.

My pelvic pain has also worsened. I feel like I have a water balloon in my stomach and it's waiting to burst.

OK, enough bitching. More later!

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Monday, February 14, 2005

My Doctor Visit

Damn, I was nervous. My doctor is so sweet though, she really puts me at ease.

The ultrasound showed 5 eggs ripening on the left side. One is larger than the rest which means it will probably be the one to go. She says the others aren't far behind and that I should getting ready to BD in about 3-4 days. She said it will shorten my 32 day cycle by about 2 days judging from the size of the eggs.

I asked her about the minimal CM.She said it was expected but I probably will get some in a few days when I'm closer to ovulation. I asked her about the Pre-Seed and she said it was fine to take...but not the others which slow down sperms mobility. They do not have it in the drugstores...at least where I live anyway. I don't think I'll order it for this cycle because I won't get it in time.

So, all in all, the clomid did its job..let's just see if it works and I get PG!
If I'm unlucky enough to get AF, then she will put me on the clomid again...probably at the 100 mg.

As I got off the table, she looked at me and said "it looks good Ally, it's very promising"...man, I was relieved. Let's hope this is it.

The 2ww is gonna kill me this month!

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Happy Valentine's Day

I woke up to dog's barking. I saw my husband come in the door with warm bagels and muffins. How sweet he was to go to get them at 5AM in the morning. On the table was the biggest box of chocolate I have ever seen. He's destined to make me fat! But I love him!! He's so sweet.

No workout today. I have to be at the doctor's at 9AM. Keeping my fingers and CM crossed! hahaha

More later...

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Sunday, February 13, 2005

Feeling ok...so far

No headache as of yet but I usually don't wake up with one. It comes on around lunch time and stays with me til dinner, sometimes later. I feel good. Dave woke me up at 5 and you know what that means. hahaha

Temp dropped a little today to 97.2 so hopefully I will see a rise soon. Another high fertility read on the monitor. Dr. tomorrow...WOOWOO. God, I hope she had some good news. Pray, pray , pray.

I've attached some photos, some you've seen some you will cringe at...like my high school picture...hahaha
I was sporting the farrah flip. The good ole 80s.

OK, off to ride. Catch everyone later hopefully.

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Kelly and Me


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Michael and Me


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My high school yearbook pic...hello 80s!!


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Saturday, February 12, 2005

Kelly and Dave - Daddy Daughter Date Night

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in a mood...

I feel different today. I don't know why. Not sad, not upset, not sick, just different. I think it's all the "not knowing" that is getting to me. I am a total control freak. I have loosened up over the years but I still get all wound up if things aren't done just so. I am not the parent who let's their kids go out without a jacket, play in the dirt, or go to the corner without me. I don't trust anyone to babysit my kids, not even family. Now, you might think that's a little harsh but I have given them chances. I have always been let down. My own sister had my child for a week and didn't give her a bath once! That is just not acceptable in my book. Most of my family is so self absorbed int heir own lives, they could care less about
anything else. So, yea, I'm a little cynical.

I guess what it all boils down to is I have had alot of let down in my life. I had an ex who couldn't care about me or the kids when we were married. I had a best friend who didn't want to come to my wedding for her own selfish reasons (she wound up leaving early). I had parents who only loved you on their terms. I had a father who stole from me, had a hitman threathen my life if he didn't pay them back, and whose parents never talked to her at all growing up because they didn't have the time.

Now don't get me wrong. I am not having a pity party. I am actually happy that I am who I am. I learned what NOT to do. I learned NOT to emulate bad behavior. I learned the RIGHT way to parent. I learned all of this on my own. I have gotten away from the bad "karma" of my childhood. I have gotten away from controlling and belligerent parents.
I have gotten away from siblings who are too wrapped up in their own lives to give a crap about me or mine. I have learned to phase out so-called friends who dont' have the time for me or only call when they want something. I have even phased out family members who do the same.
Am I judging them? You bet. I judge their actions.

So, why am I spewing about what has let me down in my life? I guess it's because of a letter I received today. It was from my husband. He emailed it to me while he was at work so I'd see it when I woke up. He has reminded me (once again) how I'm worth the effort. I was thinking it had to be me. He made me realize what it real... and true....and what matters most. I would be so lost without him and my 2 sweet kids. SO, all in all...it doesn't matter what hell you've lived through or are going through day after day...it's the little things from the people that DO love you.

Here is a little snipet of my DH's letter (1st paragraph is about my daughter Kelly...I have to remind myself that she isn't HIS blood child)

Hi honey,

I feel terrible that I can't take Kelly to the Daddy/Daughter Dance. I know it means a lot to her. I think maybe we should all go do something on the day after Valentine's Day. It'd be nice if I took Kelly somewhere and you took Mikey somewhere and they'd be our Valentine's dates. But if we're all going out we might as well go together. I just don't know if it would be the same for Kell if she didn't have me to herself, ya know? What do you think? I just know that she's got to be bummed about not being able to go to the dance...and that makes me sad.

On another note, I'm likin ya! I'm thankful to have you in my life too. I can't imagine where I'd be in life if it weren't for you. I don't think I'd be the same person. I don't think I'd want to be the best person that I can be for someone other than you. You deserve the effort. You deserve to have me be as good of a man/husband/dad as I can be. The way you look at me, the way you smile at me, the twinkle in your eye when you look at me too long....it all makes life worthwhile. I'm not a very good person naturally. I have to make an effort. I have a lot of faults. So it's not easy being the man you deserve. But I try. And I can only hope that I make your life half as extraordinary and meaningful as you make mine. I love ya girl! See ya in a couple of hours.

Love,
Butthead



He writes that then signs it butthead....that sweet man!

Sidenote:

Thank you god...
for giving me him. I owe ya one.

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Friday, February 11, 2005

Me and my dog Sonny


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Sigh...

The beginning of the high peak...2nd day in a row. I expect another week of this at least. I took my last clomid pill on 2/8 so I should ovulated 5-9 days after that which would bring me to 2/13 - 2/17. So technically, I shouldn't be even high yet. Confused yet? Join the club.

I'm hoping I'll get a peak for at least Jenn's sake. She is having problems with her monitor. It would be nice to know that ONE of us will have an
accurate reading. My temps haven't been off the charts yet so I can't go by that. I'll see what Jenn thinks...she's better at all of this than I am.

I have another headache today...it's gotta be the hormones.

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Thursday, February 10, 2005

I don't know

...that's right, I don't know about alot of things. I don't know if I'm ovulating. My monitor read "high" today. I could get another 10 days again. The clomid will probably taint my "peak" this month as well. I don't know as I don't have ANY cm to speak of...again thanks to Clomid.

I am taking that nasty guesferin (sp) expectorant stuff to bring it on. I don't know why for the last 5 or more days I have had a headache at some point of the day. Well, I do know one thing...I just don't know!

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Tuesday, February 08, 2005

It's my blog and I can bitch if I want to

and whoever doesn't like it...DON'T READ IT!

There i feel better.

Anyway, nothing new to report on. CD 7 and still low fertility and 1 bar. I am relieved it didn't ask me for a damn test.

Last night of Clomid. I noticed my temps are a little high but that's supposed ot be normal.

6 more days til the doctor. I can't wait!

That's it.



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Monday, February 07, 2005

No subject

Just another manic Monday.

Weather is very dismal. Dave and I went for our morning workout only to get caught in the rain. How nice. Luckily it was on our way back.

Monitor showed 1 bar at CD 6. Last month it asked me for a test on day 6 but not this time. Maybe it's finally doing something right...NAH!!! I don't even know why I'm using it, it says taking Clomid affects thew results. I'm just gonna see what days it gives me a peak (if at all) and see
if it coincides with what the dr. tells me.

I'm so sick of PW. The pg women are really getting on my nerves. I'm glad Jenn found that post so show what a hypocrite some people can be.
I knew she would chalk it up to being hormonal. Nice escape. Ya try to be nice and it bites you on the ass...I should know better.

Anyway, off to do "school things". We're having a Valentine's party and I need to send out flyers to all the kids. I also have a meeting with the school counselor to discuss my daughter's classmates who are bullying her a bit. If they don't handle it, I will. Just because my daughter is petite (only 60 lbs compared to the 80 lbs kids) and she gets A's instead of D's...she's ostracized. Not gonna happen on my clock. Period.

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Sunday, February 06, 2005

Started the Clomid...

and so far no side effects. I think it's helping that I take it before I go to bed. According to Fertility Friend I should ovulate 5-9 days after the last dose. Hopefully when I get to my 2/14 dr. appointment for an ultra sound, she'll be able to tell. I'm also temping and I read that Clomid affects that as well but should even out with Ovulation. There supposed to start out somewhat high and level off. Mine seem normal so far.

I'm also going to inquire about sperm analysis and checking my tubes. She probably doesn't think anything is wrong with them since i had three other pregnancies and 2 kids but it may be David for all I know. I hope not but you never know.

I just want to exercise all my options with FULL disclosure! That's not too much to ask, is it?

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Friday, February 04, 2005

TGIF

Nothing much to report other than I'm on CD 3, still hurting from a rather painful and heavy period this month (thanks Prometrium) and waiting to start the Clomid tonight. Mood swings here I come!

I'm going out to run and it's only 32 degrees...I think the crazy swings are starting already. hahaha

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Article on Clomid...an Interesting read

Clomid - What, Why and How
Contributed by Angie Boss, Staff Writer


Clomid - the very name is enough to strike fear in the hearts of husbands of infertile women everywhere. After a few days of it, my husband will wistfully ask, "Why aren't there hormone-free safe houses for men to go to?" Often the first line of defense when it comes to infertility medication, it is often among the worst offenders when it comes to emotional side effects. On the other hand, Clomid is a good fertility medication and doesn't require injections, which is always a plus.

What is it?
Clomiphene citrate is frequently referred to by its brand names, Clomid and Serophene. Clomiphene is used to induce ovulation, to correct irregular ovulation, to help increase egg production and to correct luteal phase deficiency. It is one of the selective estrogen receptor modulators that acts as an anti-estrogen and tricks the pituitary gland into producing more FSH and LH, which, in turn, stimulates the ovary into producing more eggs and follicles. Generally, Clomid follicles are larger than injectible follicles right before ovulation

What should I know before taking it?
If there is a male factor involved in your inability to get pregnant, Clomid will not fix the problem. In fact, that's why most physicians suggest a thorough exam and adequate laboratory testing before beginning Clomid. One would not want to arbitrarily begin taking Clomid if there are other problems that need to be addressed, as it would not necessarily be of any value in the face of other unrelated factors. Especially if you're paying out of pocket, unproductive overuse of the drug can get expensive.

What constitutes a thorough exam and adequate laboratory testing?
Preliminary fertility testing should consist of a cycle day 3 ultrasound, a hysterosalpingogram (HSG - to check the condition of the fallopian tubes and to make sure there are no uterine anomalies), cycle day 3 bloodwork (to check FSH and LH levels), and a progesterone/prolactin check (bloodwork) seven to nine days after ovulation. A semen analysis for the partner is just as important. Ideally, doctors would try to find out why a couple is not achieving a pregnancy. "I walked in to my doctor's office, told him I had been trying to get pregnant for a year and wanted to try Clomid," remembers Dawn, a 34-year-old woman. "He said 'ok' and wrote me a prescription with six refills. I wasted six months before anyone realized I had blocked fallopian tubes."

How do I take it?
Clomiphene citrate comes in 50-mg tablets that are taken on days 5-9 of your cycle or, less typically, on days 4-8 or 3-7. There is some preliminary research that indicates that an earlier start date may result in more pregnancies, but most gynecologists continue to prescribe it for days 5-9. One recent study (Biljan et al, cited below) actually tried prescribing Clomid on cycle days 1-5. While none of the participants in their day 5-9 group resulted in pregnancy, 24 percent of the women who took Clomid on days 1-5 were able to conceive.

Daily doses range from 50 mg to 200 mg. A few doctors will prescribe as much 250 mg per day, but this is rare and goes against manufacturer's suggestions. The Merck Manual, a reputable sourcebook for health care professionals, suggests no more than 150 mg per day.

What can I expect?
Just as women's bodies are so different from one another, their reactions to Clomid vary tremendously. Some women have virtually no side effects. Others do, but they are more frequently related to emotions. As Lana describes her three months on Clomid before moving on to other medications: "Hormone hell is probably the best way to describe it. By the third or fourth day of taking it, I would become hysterical for absolutely no reason. I felt as if I had no control over my body. I began to wonder if this was worth it. But, it only lasted a few days, and we all got through it. But it wasn't fun."

Other side effects may include mood swings, hot flashes, breast tenderness, and thinning of the uterine lining. Multiple gestation pregnancies may occur (about an 8-10 percent occurrence in those who get pregnant). Ironically, Clomid can cause hostile fertile mucous and thins the uterine lining in over 30 percent of the women who use it. The hostile mucus kills sperm, and the thin uterine can prevent implantation or cause an early miscarriage.

Can I afford it?
On a more positive note, Clomid is one of the more affordable fertility drugs, and it has a generic equivalent. A five-day supply of 50-mg tablets can run from $15 to $35. Obviously, it gets more expensive when you triple or even quadruple the dosage. Generally, research shows that if the drug doesn't work in four to six cycles, it isn't likely to work. However, if you take a break and start over, perhaps with the addition of HCG or an insulin sensitizer for women with PCOS, then you may elect to start the four to six cycles over again.

What are the risks?
As with most ovulation-inducing drugs, there is a risk of ovarian hyperstimulation. Cysts can erupt and ovaries can be enlarged. This is rarely serious and is more common with other fertility medications. However, if you are taking this medication and have unexplained pain, call your doctor. A quick ultrasound can determine if there are any problems. This drug should not be taken if you are pregnant or have a history of liver disease.

Several years ago, there research findings were reported stating that Clomid increased a woman's chance of getting cervical cancer. The data associated with that study have since been found to be flawed, and many physicians discredit the researchers' conclusions. However, if you have concerns, talk to your physician about them.

How will I be monitored?
Many physicians will not perform routine ultrasounds on a Clomid cycle unless an HCG is added. However, on or around cycle day 21, a progesterone check (blood draw) is often done. Ideally, clomiphene would trigger higher progesterone production, which can improve the quality of the uterine lining and/or lengthen the luteal phase of the cycle.

In addition, an ovulation predictor kit can be used to test for an LH surge. Each kit is different and you may need to test on a different day when on this drug - do read the instructions carefully. Clomid can create hostile cervical mucus or dry up the mucus, in which case a postcoital test may be done. However, this would not be necessary when undergoing intra-uterine insemination (IUI).

Once on Clomid, the only way to determine if it is "doing it's job" is proper monitoring. A cd 3 scan may reveal any cysts, another scan around cd 11 or 12 may be conducted to check follicular development and the lining, and a progesterone check six or seven days past ovulation may be performed to see if progesterone levels are high enough to support a pregnancy (p4 levels should be "15" or better). Also, a post coital test (PCT) should be done when either blood work or ovulation predictor kits detect an LH surge. If hostile mucous presents a threat to the sperm, then an IUI should be done. When follicle(s) are big enough, an HCG shot followed within 36 hours by an IUI procedure may provide optimal results.

What's the Bottom Line?
The risks are minimal, it doesn't hurt to take it, it's relatively inexpensive, and overall, Clomid is a good fertility medication. "Without Clomid, I wouldn't have had Benjamin," says Tammy, a new mom at 34. "On our third Clomid cycle, I conceived and everything was wonderful. I would do it again in a heartbeat."

Marinko M. Biljan, Neal G. Mahutte, Togas Tulandi, and Seang Lin Tang; McGill Reproductive Center, Department of Obstetrics and Gynecology, Royal Victoria Hospital, McGill University, Montreal, Quebec, Canada

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Thursday, February 03, 2005

Ugh...

I knew when I didn't take the Prometrium last night that my AF would come on like gangbusters...and it did just that. I feel horrid today. I have cramps but not like the usual ones. Every time I go to sit, it hurts in my pelvis. God knows what's going on in there. I seriously don't know if I can work out today.

I'm thinking of all I have to do today...go food shopping, meet my daughter for lunch (she likes me to 1X a week), pick both kids up early so I can take them to the dentist for their checkup. Talk about rotten timing. Dave went back to work today so I have to do it all on my own.
Where's my motrin???

Started temping this morning. I was so nervous I was going to forget and get up like a rocket to go to the bathroom that I put the thermometer on
my clock radio. I knew I had to turn off the alarm before I did anything else. I woke up at 4 dreaming about missing my temp. I'm anal, I know.
So, I just said fuck it and took it at 4. I logged it and then went back to sleep til 6. I slept like a rock for those 2 hours just knowing I didn't have to do anything when I woke up.

Clomid starts tomorrow. I was reading the pamplet from the pharmacy and there is a running list of side effects. More side effects. My dr. assured me I won't feel anything with the 50 mg dose but we shall see.
I am also taking it on days 3-7 not the traditional 5-9...why? hell if I know. She says she has better success the earlier you take it, so again, WE'LL SEE!

I need some hot tea, maybe it will settle my stomach and I can TRY to have a somewhat pain free day. Good news...migraine is gone. Thank God for that.

OK, see everyone later.

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Wednesday, February 02, 2005

Update...

Well, I just spoke to the doctor. She is going to start me on the Clomid on day 3 through day 7 at the 50 mg dose. I have an appointment for 2/14 for the ultrasound which will be great. She said it should be right before I ovulate andshe'll be able to tell if it worked. Perfect! I pray it works!!

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Onto Clomid...

Well, you guessed it. AF reared her ugly head this morning. I guess I'm back to 32 day cycles. I counted back 14 days from today to see when myfertile time would have been and we bd'd that day and 3 times the three days before...so I don't know what's the problem but we were in the right time. I also saw those days as being high fertility but not peak on my monitor...maybe I just didn't ovulate. Who the fuck knows anymore.Now I'm just waiting to call the doctor so I can get the Clomid today. Onward and Upward

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Tuesday, February 01, 2005

She'll get hers!

I swear that bitch doesn't wanna show her face because she knows I'll be ready to kick her ass and fuck her up! Yea! I'm talking about the dreaded Aunt that everyboody hates. I'm talking about Flo-rence of the Doomed who hails from Flo-rida and reaks havok with her flo-wering red sunshine. That bitch...that's all I'll say about her.

On another note, no workout for me today. I pulled a ligament in my left knee. Just great. That's what I get for overdoing it. It's raining its ass off anyway so I dont' feel so bad. OK, I do feel a little bad. I ate 3 FUCKING donuts yesterday! They were so damn good though so I'm not hating on Jenn too much today. All that Dunkin' talk...UGH!!!!

So, CD 31 and no symptoms of the bitch, no pg symptoms to speak of...unless you think eating 3 donuts a pg symptom. I guess that means Dave is pg too...he ate 4! I love my husband. We call each other PIC. I'll explain. We eat really healthy about 90 percent of the time. I mean fish, egg white healthy. Gross healthy. We work out every day usually. We are not the normal couple. I don't eat red meat, sugar, cold cuts, sodium, or anything high in fat or carbs. I know, I'm a boring ass. But as I said, thats 90 percent of the time. The other 10 percent comes into play when I've had a shitty day, when Dave just can't take another egg white and we go into PIC mode. When he's craving something he looks at me and says with a coyish smile "PIC?"...I smile and either say ..."HELL NO" ... and then 5 minutes later I think about it and say "ok, PIC". PIC = Partner in crime. When he wants to be bad and go off the health kick, he needs me to join him and vice versa. It's a rationale we can both live with. LOL

So needless to say, yesterday was a PIC day. Today hopefully will be better...unless that bitch shows up.

Ooh, another thing. I had the worst dream EVER. It woke me up several times and it wouldn't stop. I dont' want to say what happened because it upset me greatly and if I see the words on here, I'll probably cry. I'll say one thing though. I was pregnant in the dream...and no, I didn't lose it.
As much as I want to be pregnant, this dream better have no bearing on my real life whatsoever. I would give up being pregnant again if that were the case. THAT'S HOW BAD IT WAS!

I'm gonna look up dream interpretation and see what it says. I, like Jenn, am a researchaholic....coupled with a computeraholic.

I hope I didn't bore everyone to tears reading this ramble. Anyway, have a nice day girls.

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