This is a blog about me, Ally, 44 now...trying to conceive baby #3. After 5 years, several miscarriages and heartaches we finally did it. Ava Lynn was born on January 30th 2009. Now I have two teenagers and a baby! Ally wants three is now complete. It's all gravy from here on in...

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

This made me laugh

This could happen to you:

I was barely sitting down when I heard a voice from the other bathroom stall saying, "Hi, how are you?"

I'm not the type to start a conversation in the restroom, but I don't know what got into me, so I answered, somewhat embarrassed, "Doin' just fine!"

And the other person said, "So, what are you up to?"

What kind of question is that? At this point, I was thinking this was too bizarre, so I said, "Uhhh, I'm like you, just traveling!"

At this point I was just trying to get out as fast as I could, when I heard another question. "Can I come over?"

Okay, this question was just too weird for me, but I figured I could just be polite and end the conversation. I told the person, "No... I'm a little busy right now!!!"

Then I heard the person say nervously, "Listen, I'll have to call you back. There's an idiot in the other stall who keeps answering all my questions!"

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Saturday, May 28, 2005

They didn't accept...

the offer we submitted on the house. They are having a house built and I was so sure they'd accept a contingency but they want to be assured they close on their home before the other home is finished. I guess I can understand that...just sucks is all.

So, I pray my house sells. I pray we can move to SA and be a family again. The weekends only is for the birds. It does make the reunions extra special though. :)

AF is kicking my ass this month. Without getting too graphic, it's like taking 4 lbs of bologna out of a 2 lb. bag if you get my drift. That's the only upside to BCPs...light periods.

I went to see Jennie at the hospital today. I am happy she is coping as well as can be expected. I can't even imagine how I would survive such a tramatic ordeal. She's so strong and her husband is totally supportive...great combination. I don't know if I could be.

I've been praying alot lately. Talking to God is just something I do on occasion. I don't go to church and I am hardly religious but somehow I find comfort in speaking to him. I asked him to bless my family and friends, to give strength to Jennie, to give Jenn a BFP on IUI #3, to give Les the much needed money for her operation, to help Jamie cope with her meds and uplift her spirits, to ease Liz's mind for IVF, to give Heather M a competent babysitter so she can have some alone time with her hubby, for Heather to have twins, and basically help us IPPers along.
That's not too much to ask for is it? I hope I didn't bore him to tears. LOL

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Thursday, May 26, 2005

Black Thursday

AF arrived this morning....son of a bitch!!

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Wednesday, May 25, 2005

This is the house we chose

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House we made an offer on

David went house hunting...all the other bombed except this's spectacular!! We love it and hope to hera back from the owners. My realtor told me the owners are having a house built so she was pretty confident that they would accept a contingency.

See the backyard pics below!!!

Keep your fingers crossed!!!

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Monday, May 23, 2005

Back to work :(

The weekend flew by...and David is back at work. I only had to miss him for 3 days last week, this week will be five. Definately sucks major butt!

Still no word on the home we like. Damn, the waiting it awful. Seems like all I ever do it wait.

Imagine what could be done in half the time if we eliminated waiting. I guess that's where patience comes in. Patience...can a person have too much? Sometimes I feel like I do.
My son requires me to have ALOT of patience. He can get upset out of nowhere and I have to figure out what's wrong. If we're in a public place then it becomes a bit more challenging. Throw in the stares we get and you wonder why I have such tough skin.

So, this is this weeks patient acts for me:

  • 1. Waiting for my husband to come home.
  • 2. Waiting for my home to sell.
  • 3. Waiting for AF to arrive this week...hopefully she won't.
  • 4. Waiting to move.
  • 5. Waiting on the house in SA.
  • 6. Waiting on the kids school to end. Thursday is their last day.

Well, that's about it. I have to go now and muster up some patience...too bad the local supermarket doesn't carry it.

Have a nice day ladies.

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Friday, May 20, 2005

What a wimp I am

It's only been three days and I really miss my husband. The kids miss him....even the dogs miss him. This sucks him working in SA during the week. He doesn't even know if he can come home after this weekend because he needs to be on call. I will go insane! I sure hope my home sells and I can move already!

No news on house #1. They took it offf the market because the owner didn't know if he was transferring...still waiting. House #2...DH went to see and hated the neighborhood. Either we luck out and find a home that isn't listed yet, or severly sacrifice on your needs. I want a 4 bedroom, 3 Bath with a large yard on a culdesac. I want an eat in kitchen and at least 2000-2500 square feet. Not too much to ask, right? I have to be specific about the areas because I need a certain middle school for my son. They have a perfect academic placment for autistic kids. I guess I just need to have faith it'll all work out.

On the TTC front...8 DPO. I guess my AF will show herself in another week or so. I can hardly wait for that . *insert massive sarcasm here*

I said prayers last night for my ipp family and for Jennie. Let's hope he listened and shines babies on all of us.

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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Front of 2nd choice house

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2nd choice if first house falls through - yard

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Tests and House update

David had to do another sperm analysis, he had to have an ultrasound done (which he said was quite painful) and a laparascopic scope was inserted (you can guess where). They told him he had a vessel thta had too much blood pumping into it. They told him that is why he has a lower sperm count (because too much blood means too much heat) and why the sperms can't get to where they need to. Conclusion.. a procedure done to cut off one of the valves. I don't know what it entails...we'll have to see another urologist once we get to SA and they will fill us in as to what's involved. No wonder we can't get pregnant..with my cyst and his valve problem it'll be a miracle. if it happens.

On the house front, the house we like and wanted to put an offer on has been temporarily taken off the market. It seems the owner works for the Dept. of the Defense and his job transfer is in question due to the area it being a target hit for terrorists. Nice. We won't know until Thursday if he'll stay permanently and just take it off the market.

Can anything go right????

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Dr. appt update

David had his urologist appointment yesterday. All went well. The doctor doesn't think his infection is much of a problem and told him it would likely clear up on his own.

He's making him get some additional tests today. Blood to check his hormones, an ultrasound of his nether regions to check for blockages and a test where they stick a catheter into his butt to check his urethra, etc.. I know so pleasant! POOR DAVE!

I noticed the house I like and was going to put an offer on has been temporarily taken off the market...why I don't know. I guess I just have to wait until I speak to my SA realtor. My house is on the market here in Houston. I hope we get an offer quick. I HATE people trapsing through my house! I guess it's the price you have to pay.

School is out in less than a week. I have Kelly's talent show to attend. I have Mikey's award ceremony. I have swim class starting on the 1st. I have so much to freaking do with my house and Dave leaves tonight to start work tomorrow! WAHHH!!

On the TTC front, 5 DPO and haven't thought much about it really. I have been too busy to do anything. I promise to update blogs soon. I'm sorry about that.

That's it for now. I hope everyone is doing well.

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Saturday, May 14, 2005

House Hunting...Update

Well, I'm at the hotel with my laptop so I thought I'd update my blog to let everyone know how house hunting went.

9 houses I looked at today. All seemed to have something wrong with it. Then there was the house I posted the pictures on...well, let me tell you...I LOVED IT. The carpet wasn't hideous at all...just everywhere! We definately have to take it out of the bathrooms. This house even has green mini blinds. Sheesh! Wood blinds will be replaced and David wants to add two sinks in the master bathroom...other than's gorgeous! I know that seems like alot but considering what I saw today, it's not. The place is large enough and the backyard is magnificient. I already called the realtor and we're gonna be making an offer contingent on our house in Houston selling. Let's hope they accept!

Other than that, we're laying low tonight in our hotel and then tomorrow we'll drive around and see whats around. This place rocks. We already went to Dave's new work which is on the campus of University of Texas at San Antonio...let me say, it's the nicest, most posh place I ever seen for a work environment. Picture Central Park with stone buildings in the middle. Of course it's on a much smaller scale but man o's swanky!!

We'll be back in town tomorrow evening and I'll be sure to post on everyone's blogs. My laptop needs to be recharged so I need to turn it off.

I hope everyone is having a nice weekend.

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Thursday, May 12, 2005

House we like!!

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House we're interested in...4BR/3BA 2572 Sq. feet. I'm going to see if this weekend and will make an offer if they replace the green carpet or give us an allowance for it. It's on 1/3 of an acre which is a good size for us.

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Backyard of the house we like...

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My cyst

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OK, Picture #1 shows my uterus (the round shaped pink thing)...and if you look closely you can see my tubes. On the left is my normal tube and on my right is that huge white thing...that's the cyst. It's making the tube stretch. As soon as she removed it (and it was stubborn) the tube went right back to normal and looking like the left. She says most cysts dissipate when they try to grab them, this one didn' wanted to permanently hang out there. Picture #2 and #3 are just different views of it.

I gasped when I saw these pics. She said it's a wonder I didn't fall over every time I ovulated from the pain. It's amazing how flat my stomach is now...go figure, I thought the bloat feeling was too many biscuits. LOLOL.

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Monday, May 09, 2005

San Antonio Bound

We finally heard the word about Dave's promotion. He got the job!! So, it's off to San Antonio for us. They want him to start on June 1st so he'll have to go ahead of us and have the company put him up in a hotel.

There is so much to do and think about. Where will we live? How am I going to pack up the entire house by myself? How will I find the right school for Michael? and for Kelly? How will I show the house with 4 animals? How will I move with 4 animals, 2 kids, 2 cars and a motorcycle?? The questions going through my mind are endless.

I have to get rid of all the clutter...and keep it in pristine condition. Do you know how hard that is with 2 kids, 4 hairy pets and 2 adults. Almost impossible.
I also have to think about when their dad is going ot have them this summer. Should I wait until we have a definate move date? That would probably be wise but I don't want to screw up his plans so we'll have to see.

On the fertility front, I'm CD 9 and still recovering. I get the stitches out on Thursday along with the pathology results ont he cyst. Monday is David's urologist appointment so hopefully we will know what we're up against by then. I know the doctor wants me to wait to bd but I'm not giving up a perfectly good month especially when David may not be here except weekends after this month. Wouldn't that be ironic if I got pregnant this month and didn't need to find another doctor. I would be SO HAPPY on so many levels. I know it's a long shot but it's fun to think about.

Anyway, I have a headache thinking about all I have to do and expect in the upcoming least it'll take my mind off TTC right? I sure hope so!!

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Saturday, May 07, 2005

What Mother's Day means to me...

When I was a child, I didn't really understand the importance of Mother's Day. I gave my mother a card or a gift like I did every year with my siblings. For me, it was more out of obligation than anything else. Don't get me wrong, I loved my mother but I never felt close to her. We never really talked about anything mother-daughter related. I kept to myself alot. I'm sure she loved me in her own special way but it wasn't an outpouring of emotion on either end.
Being the youngest of five is hard. 4 sibs ahead of you, the fifth is usually the cast-off...basically because of sheer exhaustion. Noone had time for me. That's how I felt anyway.

Fast forward 25 years. The day I became a mother is a day I will never forget. I cried when my son was born. I didn't have anyone with me except for my then husband. I didn't know how to do anything and wondered if I would be a good mother. All I could do was put every effort into it. I went through the 2 am feedings, the screaming fits for no reason. I remember thinking how I couldn't wait for Michael to talk. Little did I know, I'd have to wait til he was 6.

I had a few of those never forget moments but the memory that sticks out in my mind is Mother's Day 1998. I had went into Michael's backpack that Sunday evening to pack his stuff for the next day when I pulled out some artwork he had made. I asked him.."Mike, did you make this for Mommy?". It was a long string attached to a piece of paper shaped like a diamond with the words "I love you Mom on it...Happy Mother's Day". When I showed it to him he took his finger and pointed to the words and repeated them. That was the first time I ever heard him say "I love you Mommy". Needless to say, I was sobbing uncontrollably.

When my daughter Kelly was born, weighing in at 10 lbs. 5 ozs I thought I would die right on the table. Sheer agony with no pain medication. Again, when she was born all I could think about is how different I would be with my daughter. She would never be lonely or feel alone. We are so close. Sometimes I have to remember I'm her mother and not her buddy. We have so much fun with each other. I love to see her interact with Michael. He trully loves her and follows her lead. I wanted to have a son first and a daughter second so he could look after her but it didn't work out that way. She takes care of him and he loves it! I was meant to be a mother. I am complete nurturer and total pushover for my kids.

I realized what Mother's Day was all about. Love.
It's about how your children feel about the job you do for them. The hugs, the sweet smiles... who could ask for more? Not me. I didn't have that as a child but I certainly learned from her mistakes. I just can't relate to being cold and uncaring to your own children. I think my kids are grateful that I am the overprotective, loving, affectionate and neurotic mom! I hope so anyway.

With that being said, Have a wonderful Mother's Day!

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Friday, May 06, 2005

On the mend

Two days since the surgery and I'm getting back to normal. You don't realize how often you use your stomach muscles. 5 more days and I get the stitches out. Yahoo!

I go back to my RE on May 12th. She said she'll have the pathology report on the cyst. Hopefully it will be nothing and we can move forward. She seems to think that the cyst was inhibiting me
from conceiving and she doesn't forsee problems trying to conceive again. I may ttc naturally for a month or two and if that doesn't work, then onward to IUI. I have to see what she says about it all.

David's urology appt is set for May 16th. I think they will put him on an antibiotic to clear up the infection he has internally. Again, I'm just assuming. We'll see how it goes.

So, that's it for now. I have to take it easy as I don't want my incisions to bleed again..

P.S. Today is my sweet hubby's birthday.

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Monday, May 02, 2005


Well, I got the confirmation for the surgery on Wednesday. It's a definate go. Usually she will only do the laparascopy from days CD 5 - CD 11 and I will only be CD4. She says it's fine. Tomorrow is the pre-op. First I have a consult with the RE, then I guess it's over to the hospital for the rest.

On another note, I think my daughter has strep. I could be wrong but I saw white dots at the back of her throat. Perfect timing. If she wakes up with a fever tomorrow I will let her stay home from school, stay with Dave (he'll be coming off nights and will be home by 6) and take her to the doctor when I get back.

Well, that's it for now. I just pray Mikey doesn't get sick. I'm lucky I didn't but I've been staying away from her as much as possible. She's been in her room mostly so that's good. I visit from a far and bring her meals...she has the life. LOL

I'll will update tomorrow on the pre-op. Surgery on Wednesday at 9Am. Wish me luck.

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Sunday, May 01, 2005

Guess the Google

This game is addicting. Enjoy.

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CD 1

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