Our new paint job...and Dr. news

On other news, I went to my leg doctor today. He said I am gaining much of my mobility back and I should be even better in the next couple of months. I can even start exercising again. WOOWOO! I know what you're thinking....that I will be a crazy person but I will take it slow and easy until I'm back to where I was. I just think that's the best news I have heard in a long time!

Yea, maybe things are changing for me.

Back by popular demand...LOL

Well, I am back. I won't go into what happened but things are good and I'm happpy to be back.

Nothing new to report really. I am 6-7 DPO and started spotting today. I do not know what that's all about, I never spot in between. I guess it's just my body showing me how messed up it is. GOD, I do hope those cysts/old follies are gone.

I start shots in about 10 days or so, depending when AF shows her ugly face. I decided to go to my RE's office for the first day of shots so they can show me how to do it. I know, I'm anal but I first have to mix it and I just want to be sure I do it right.

I am working on my diet too. I am starting to eat 6 meals a day as to increase my blood sugar... I have been getting faint so I dont' think I have been eating enough. I also added fruit twice a day...I think the natural sugar might help.

Anyway, I hope everyone is doing well. Take care and smooches to all!

My Final Post

My TTC journey will continue but I'm afraid my posts will not. It seems that I have made some bad choices in regards to what I have said in the past so I will have to just keep things to myself in the future.

For all the ladies that come to my blog, I wish you well in your TTC efforts and may you all have stress free pregnancies and wonderful babies.

Thanks for being my friends.

Hubby Hard at Work

Making Michael's loft bed...

Tomorrow Mike will be 14! Holy Moly!

Mike's chillin in his bed....doing what else?...watching Disney!

Hates taking pictures ...hense the gloved finger I got

Kelly looking all grown up...

I finally have a green thumb...look a bloom!!

RE Follow-up Part II

When I saw the last RE (an associate of my Dr) he answered many of my questions but he felt that my own Dr. should clue me in as to what to do next. He was on vacation and a note was left for him to call me. I was stunned when he actually called his first day back (today) at 8:15Am.

We spoke for about 20 minutes...I feel very calm with him and I was happy when he first said "Ally, we need to get aggressive here". I agreed and asked a million questions about the next steps. He suggested Gonal-F injections for the next cycle. I start on CD 3 and take the shots for 7-10 days depending how my FSH looks in the blood tests. I take the HSG shot to make sure ovulation matures and then follow up with another IUI. I asked how the Gonal -F shots would be more effective than the Clomid (since I produce many follies on it) and he stated that the Gonal-F actually makes better eggs...and thats what I need at my age. Another good thing is that the effective rate doubles for a positive pregnancy. WOOWOO!!

So, I am hopeful once again. I sure hope these cysts dissipate in time and I don't have to sit out for another month. He is confident that they will.


IUI #4...here we come.

RE Follow-up

I went in today to get my baseline ultrasound. I didn't plan on it because I was sitting this cycle out but I knew I had to make sure everything was clear. And it wasn't. I have two remaining follicles that haven't dissipated so I had to sit this cycle out anyway. I hope it's not a repeat performance (remember the cyst I had to have surgically removed) of what's to come.

I am now off the Clomid (after taking it for three days) and see him again after I get AF. He said there is still a chance to become pregnant ( I don't know how) through all of this but that would simply be a miracle. Judging from my luck lately, it's not even a pipe dream.

Tonight, we have a sitter and David and I are going out to dinner to celebrate our 7th wedding Anniversary which is Sunday. That's all I can focus on right now...

MRI Results, etc

Leg doctors office called...and I expected it to be bad. Seems I tore the ACL and MCL ligaments. I'm not sure how badly but I was given instructions to keep up the therapy and see him in about 3 weeks.

RE appointment is scheduled for this Friday. I chose the other RE in the office because he is far more aggressive than the one I have been seeing. I need answers and I hope he has some for me. As for this cycle, taking the Clomid starting tonight (CD3) and going it naturally.

On other news, my 7th wedding anniversary is this weekend and I am very excited. I never made it to 7 years so this is a milestone for us. Dave took a 4 day weekend so we should have a nice time.

Anyway, thats it for now. Enjoy your day ladies.

CD 1

The bitch finally arrived. I was a little relieved because I really do hate the waiting and being in limbo.

Dave and I have decided to take off this month...and not do another IUI. I really need to regroup and speak to the Dr. I really want his imput as to why this is not working. He told me we would try a few Clomid cycles and then move onto injectibles but if I produce a good amount of follies on the Clomid, then why? I will schedule an appt this week to go over things.

I am still going to take my Clomid this month but other than that, it's au natural.

Yesterday I had a MRI for my knee. I went to my leg doctor on Friday and he is 90% sure I tore the main knee ligament. Surgery is the only cure and the recovery is very extensive. I am not planning on it as I'd have to put off my TTC efforts indefinately until I recovered and I just don't have that kind of time. I'll be 41 this September and my clock is just about out of batteries as it is!

On other news, can I just say this? My husband is absolutely wonderful! He spend the day yesterday grocery shopping to make me the most wonderful candlelit dinner. It was fabulous. We ate, drank wine ( I had a few lemon drops) , watched a movie and made love.

All I could think about when AF showed this morning is "Damn, he really deserves a child" "Am I just too old?" ...and it left me feeling a little sad and unable.

Can I do this for him? for us? for our family? Please God, can I?

Conversation with my Husband

3AM - Couldn't sleep and had to pee so I went to POAS....negative.

6AM - Dave nuzzling me trying to get me up.

Me: "I think I'm going to cancel the blood test"
Dave: "Why?"
Me: "I took a test this morning and it was negative"
Dave: "Well, thats your call"

10 minutes later he catches me in the hall looking rather bleek.

Dave: What honey? What's wrong?
Me: "I just don't know why it's not working"
Dave: "Well, you are the one with hope right?" "Wait a few more days"
Dave: "Maybe it's just not meant to be"
Me: "Don't you have any hope?"
Dave: "You have to have hope for the both of us"
Me: Sigh.