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I really had to force myself to post. I know it's been almost a week since I have. I have been in the worst blah mood so I thought better of it.

I miss my husband. He's been gone for two weeks. This is really getting old. I said it before and I'll say it again...I'll be happy when we can move. Which brings me to this next situation. Yes, we got an offer on our house and NO we haven't accepted it. They really lowballed us and asked us to pay for everything...closing costs, carpet cleaning, homeowner's fees, home warranty...these people are crazy! We countered and they decided to keep looking . It's very frustrating. WHY can't they compromise??

I haven't posted on PW at all. I don't really feel like I belong anywhere. I see the drama on both boards and I certainly want no part of it. I cannot even define what "mode" I'm in...am I TTCing? am I not? One minute I have totally given up and the next I am taking soy to jolt my fertility. If I'm lucky enough to get pregnant and STAY pregnant, great. I will not go the "RE" route again... either it happens on it's own or nothing. I can honestly say that I'm so jealous when I see a pregnant woman. It's so unfair that I tried for a whole year and when I finally get pregnant, I lose them. It just isn't fair. I know I am rambling, but I have so many emotions and no answers.

So, that's where I am. I am in the "nothing is going easy" phase. It has lasted months and quite frankly, I'm sick of it. I know I'm supposed to have faith but I'm tired of waiting for everything. I'm tired of having no control in my life. I'm tired of waiting for stupid people to make a decision. I am just tired. Sorry.

CD 2

Yes, Af reared her ugly head...bout time she stopped screwing with me!

Wednesday

I had my son's final ARD meeting yesterday. Since the biatch has resigned, they have a long term substitute in his class. He is going to school to become a Lifeskills teacher and he happens to have a special ed child of his own. That alone gave me good vibes. This guy MUST have patience. I met him and after only speaking to him for 10 minutes, I had a good feeling. He's only been there since last Thursday and I've not only seen major changes in the classroom but in my son. Hallelejah!!!!

I have decided to leave him at this campus while this guy is on board and that will be until his assignment is over in January. The principal told me he would have me come in to meet prospective teachers and to give them MY opinion of if they are a worthwhile candidate. WOW. I was impressed. Either this principal doesn't want me mad again or he's really concerned about screwing up again. I think a little of both! LOLOL

So, the meeting ended on a good note and everyone left happy. I will be cautiously optimistic for Michael and this new class.

On another note, I am still spotting. I only see it when I wipe but thats it. It's so minimal I have to squint to see it. First it was brown (I know TMI) and now it's a faint red/pink. I ovulated two weeks ago so it's either AF trying to come thru or my system is really messed up. We shall see.

Jamie and Chas...I hope you had wonderful birthdays!!
Les...it was great to hear from you. I hope all is well.
Jenn...I'm glad you had a good dr. appt and all is fine with the buggers.
Jess...update your blog woman so I know you're alive! :)
Heather M...I still think you're having a boy.
Heather P...I am glad you're feeling well.
Liz ... won't be long now!!

Everyone else I missed...I'm sorry. But have a great day anyway!!!

To my Ipp Sistahs!!!

A True Friend

Are you sick of all those sissy "friendship" poems that always sound ! like Hallmark cards, and never come close to reality? Well, here is a series of promises that really speak to true friendship:

1. When you are sad - I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.

2. When you are blue - I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

3. When you smile - I will know you've finally had sex.

4. When you are scared - I will rag on you about it every chance I get.

5. When you are worried, I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be and tell you to quit whining.

6. When you are confused - I will use little words.

7. When you are sick - stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have.

8. When you fall - I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.


Remember: A good friend will help you move. A really good friend will help you move a body. Let me know if I ever need to bring a shovel.

YAHOO

Well, I got my wish. The bitch of a teacher that my son had...has resigned!! YES! Apparantly she couldn't handle the pressure of all the complaints about her. Good riddens!! Maybe she can get a job where she's really qualified...like Burger King!

I still have my meeting on Tuesday. I don't know what will transpire of if they will have another teacher in place at his present school that IS qualified....I guess I have to wait and see.

That's it for now...I have to finish cleaning. Have a good day everyone!

Hump Day

Well, it's Wednesday and things are progressing on my son's school front. I have to go to another junior high campus to observe the class and teacher there. I met the principal yesterday (he happens to be the same one when my kids were in elementary) so we knew each other. He remembered how Michael was and was appalled at what was going on in his school. He said he'd do anything he could to help him get back to where he needed to be. Thank god...finally, someone in the school district who gives a shit. He commended me for doing all I had to do and wished more parents were that hands on. Isn't it all worth it when it comes to your kid?

I lowered the price of my house again. It's the lowest house in my subdivision. I had to do something. It's either that or have David pay 750 a month to live in SA. Apples and oranges. At least he's got a better job that pays really well, or we'd be really so screwed.

I hope everyone had a good Halloween. I didn't know how I was going to pull that off because I am the only parent. Usually Dave stays home with Mike and gives out candy while I go trick or treating with Kelly. SO, I drove around, Mikey in the back seat in his pjs and Kelly was able to go(she was a witch). She actually liked it better because we were able to hit more ground that way. We went for about an hour and now we have two HUGE bowls of candy which I don't need to see. I have been very good not to overindulge. So far anyway. LOL

I hope everyone is doing well. I wish you all had yahoo so we can chat. Jenn, I miss ya.

OK, I'm gonna try really hard to get out of my funk today. Wish me luck!!