Me and Sonny wish you a Happy New Year

Almost over 2005

and I couldn't be happier. It hasn't been the best of years for me or my family. I am optimistic that 2006 will be better....better be because it CAN'T get worse.

As far as TTC, me and my husband have had alot of talks on the subject. He realized that he shouldn't have been so final. He realizes how much it means to me so he will continue on our TTC journey. Hopefully we will be successful in 2006.

We have ANOTHER showing today. This is a 2nd showing. Again, trying to be optimistic. Wouldn't that be awesome if we got an acceptable offer the day before the end of the year? Again...not counting my chickens.

I went to blogs to basically read. I haven't been there in awhile and was glad to see everyone is doing well. Chas, Heather M, Heather P and my pea are all about to burst at the seems and deliver their babies. It won't be long now and I am sincerely very happy for all of them. Liz is starting another round of IVF and Jamie is looking forward to a new year as I am. Les is missing in action...hopefully she will blog soon. PW message boards are not for me anymore...it just seems so forced for me to be happy. I only post when I'm genuine.

2006 better give me back my faith and hope, unless it wants an ass whooping!

Happy New Years to Everyone. Stay Safe!!

I am...

I am sad. I am hurt. I am upset and at a total loss.

Today was probably as hurtful to me as the day I lost my twins.

Today I had to give up my dream.

Today was the day that I made the mistake to tell my husband I am ovulating.

Today was the day that David told me we could no longer try for another baby.

Today was the day that I cried and cried and told him to have faith and hope. He has none.

Today was the day that he said "he can't go thru the hurt again" not even for me.

Today is the day I feel like I have a useless body.

Today was the day he told me to go back on birth control.

Tomorrow is the day I have to go thru...and relive the events of today.

Happy Eating Tips!!

If you're having a bummer of a holiday, here are a few tips to thoroughly turn your mood around.

1. Avoid carrot sticks. Anyone who puts carrots on a holiday buffet table knows nothing of the Christmas spirit. In fact, if you see carrots, leave immediately. Go next door, where they're serving rum balls.

2. Drink as much eggnog as you can. And quickly. Like fine single-malt scotch, it's rare. In fact, it's even rarer than single-malt scotch. You can't find it any other time of year but now. So drink up! Who cares that it has 10,000 calories in every sip? It's not as if you're going to turn into an eggnog-aholic or something. It's a treat. Enjoy it. Have one for me. Have two. It's later than you think. It's Christmas!

3. If something comes with gravy, use it. That's the whole point of gravy. Gravy does not stand alone. Pour it on. Make a volcano out of your mashed potatoes. Fill it with gravy. Eat the volcano. Repeat.

4. As for mashed potatoes, always ask if they're made with skim milk or whole milk. If it's skim, pass. Why bother? It's like buying a sports car with an automatic transmission.

5. Do not have a snack before going to a party in an effort to control your eating. The whole point of going to a Christmas party is to eat other people's food for free. Lots of it. Hello?

6. Under no circumstances should you exercise between now and New Year's. You can do that in January when you have nothing else to do. This is the time for long naps, which you'll need after circling the buffet table while carrying a 10-pound plate of food and that vat of eggnog.

7. If you come across something really good at a buffet table, like frosted Christmas cookies in the shape and size of Santa, position yourself near them and don't budge. Have as many as you can before becoming the center of attention. They're like a beautiful pair of shoes. If you leave them behind, you're never going to see them again.

8. Same for pies. Apple. Pumpkin. Mincemeat. Have a slice of each. Or, if you don't like mincemeat, have two apples and one pumpkin. Always have three. When else do you get to have more than one dessert? Labor Day?

9. Did someone mention fruitcake? Granted, it's loaded with the mandatory celebratory calories, but avoid it at all cost. I mean, have some standards.

10. One final tip: If you don't feel terrible when you leave the party or get up from the table, you haven't been paying attention. Reread all tips; start over, but hurry, January is just around the corner.Remember this motto to live by: "Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, martini in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO HOO what a ride!"

Happy Eating and Happy Holidays!!

Some Xmas Pics...Trying to be Cheery!!

Yes, even my pets have a stocking!!

even my desk looks cheery

My tree and Santa on the garage door :)

Kelly's Xmas Animals

Mikey made the napkin holder :)

Now I have some HOPE