The day has come

Well, today is the day. The day for either really good news or really bad news. I am not really worried about the Sonohysterogram...the test should be a breeze. I am just really apprehensive about the complete sperm, blood and SHG findings. Could she say something like "It doesn't look good" or "David's sperm are not viable" or "your uterus fell out 10 years ago and you didn't know it". I know, I'm going nuts. I have to keep a sense of humor through all this. What's meant to be is what's meant to be, right?

You know, I had another revelation this morning. Jenn asked what lyrics are us...mine and Dh's. Bless the broken Road was it. When I asked David to listen to it months and months ago, he agreed it was us. It was about how we went on many paths, sometimes not good ones, to find each other. Noone can say we didn't find each other in one of the most non traditional ways. For those who don't know, we found each other online. Eight years later, we're still as happy together as ever.

OK, back to my revelation. The song. When I listened to it again last night, I thought of our unborn child. I had never done that. I thought that maybe I needed to take a few broken roads to lead us to this baby. It all made sense and gave me a sense of peace. Like Jenn said...I'm not ready to have this baby yet. I need to go through this, travel a few broken roads to find him/her. It makes perfect sense to me now.

Here are the lyrics:

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream
lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart
they were like northern stars

Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you